days 29-35

sometimes I feel myself the only one loser. what's that I dunno.. complexes and coplications live inside of me. I wanna stop it.
but anyway I keep going.
I keep going with learning, watching, learning, making notices, coming to the conclusions.
I am so alive like I never was never before.
I learn to live here and now.
it's hard sometimes but the thing should be remembered is do what you have to and want to NOW. don't put off any fucking thing for tomorrow or ever. tomorrow never comes. it is always only today.
yep.

days 19-28

feelings are inside my head.
Tu deviens responsable pour toujours de ce que tu as apprivoisé.
oh yes fucking bitch.
yes, I do my homework and other wholesome things but..
I dreamed about eventful life - okay, here you are! and what's now? now I dream about doing nothing but reading and movie watching.
but to be hotest
ahhaha to be honest I meant
but to be honest I want to meet Someone to Love and to have a serious and great relationship.
but I haven't got any time for it woahhaha.
very funny.

day 18th

oh
I'm so nervous.
but keep going.

days 14-17

I'm More.
I'm more than anything, more then anyone.
ja more.
"more" in russian means "see", u know.
& my name's translated from latin the same way.)

day 13

I can't take this anymore.
I forget what I have to remember to become Someone.
I'm so unprotected, helpless and so fckn' on
I know the only one source of my-Power is me.
but
Sometimes my hands go to seed.
I suppose it's just temporary but every this shit so drops me now.

hey c'mooon Gather yourself together, a rag!!!

days 10/11/12

oooooooh what the fuuuck.
don't know anything.
what should I do or smth
okay it's temporary but piss me off. and take out
la
lalalala

day 9

I'm afraid after my decision this blog turns up a-housewife-bloggy)))
for ex., today I cooked cookies with curds hoho)
& I was really good 'cuz I tried to be kiiind person.

okayokay
to do not make this post some kind of stupid,
it's meee